randomitius.

pain is strange. nerves are weird. maybe the greeks weren't far off in their ideas around the humours. we don't have mushy soup, but look at what's in our blood, and what influences what. sometimes, you don't even know you're in pain... it's how your brain adjusts to the changes. it becomes white noise.
pretty strange. interesting. bewildering.
i'm having back pain, i'm feeling it in my back, thigh, hip, and foot. weird, no?
the beginning of a year makes many people happy. me? i get nervous, because it's a new year. i don't know what's coming at me. and, each year, i progressively forget this, only to be reminded of it every new year.

...for some reason, each time i feel like this, i can't help but reflect on the stupid things i've done in my life.

i had my ultrasound yesterday. the drive was enjoyable on the way in, but tedious on the way home. it's never reassuring when your technician looks at what she's scanning sideways.
i expect i'll hear about what's up with it in the next week or so. i have an appointment with my GI in February, and i can always see him before then. the pain cycle's started again, and i don't know if it's the Throes of the Moth. it's certainly time for it, so who knows. it's not as bad as it was before christmas, but my doctor's office is being a pain. they won't accept or do anymore fax renewals for any of my meds, so it means i have to go and see them, and get a paper script.
i thanked my pharmacy for trying. they're very patient with me.

i need to contact my school.

growlsnarlfuckerfuck.